Ladadidahdaaahhh,
Let's casually chill in my dark room at half past 2 am, cause sleeping is for losers, even if just moving your finger requires your whole body to tense. Everything hurts and I'm tired. Every time I close my eyes all I can think of is a self-defense technique on a how to brake someone's hand.
When you start searching for jobs but realise it anyway doesn't matter cause what the fuck are you doing with your life anyway? Nothing! Succumbing to your laziness and melting away your brain. Do I care though? Nope. I feel anxious and depressed, keep hating myself for what I'm doing and how I'm being but won't give a shit to change that. Slow clap. Bravo.
There are 7.3 billion people living on this earth. Out those, let's say around 10%-20% are well-off. By that I mean that our daily schedule, thoughts, desires, rituals progress further than just the basic need to survive.
This means that, after subtracting things like eating and sleeping and other basic instinctive behavior patterns, we have about 17 hours everyday to use anyway we want. Multiply that by a week: 119hours. By a month, by a year: 6205 hours. Now let's say an average human lives around 70 years... 434350 hours to spend anyway we want. None of us know why we are here- because we are the product of evolution, that's why. Why does life exist? To keep up the health of the universe, I guess in the end you could break it down to mass and force aspects, balance of space and all. But honestly the real answer is: we'll never know.
Looking at it this way. In order to understand 1-dimensional space, we need to live in a 2-dimensional space, in order to understand 2D, we'd need to be looking at it from 3D or a higher order dimension. The same way, if you want to know how to get through a labyrinth, the best way to go, is to see it from the top and know it's path. My point here is that life is an n-dimensional thought, where n is definitely larger than 3. It is beyond our knowledge reach, simply because we cannot comprehend all of the factors involved- we cannot see past certain frequencies... our sense of orientation, smell, sight, touch, hearing- all is customised to the reality we know, to the limits of our brain capacity. It seems although humans are that beta-version of life: we got passed a certain point in evolution, but are still limited in our capacity. We strongly driven by our instincts and natural behavioural patterns, yet have a constant need to strive for greatness that gives us a certain Napoleon complex and breeds a sense of self-longing that sets us on an endless search for the meaning of our existence.
So my question here is: nature has a way of enforcing it's order. Better said, nature has it's order and that is it. This order is seen through every moment of life- even atomic structures and electron behaviour can be compared to human interaction. So if we take an analogy from sociology and once again apply it here: can you get fired from life?
There are 7.3 billion people, and at least 7.3 million are not using their time and resources efficient for 434350 hours on a regular basis. Does it clear up? Does the principal of live and enjoy or get out apply to life?
I believe so... Nonetheless, this answer requires quite a lot more explanation and I will probably leave that for next time.
Enjoy life! Make it count! Love and be loved, help others! Achieve! Be!
