Это лето было, несомненно, очень насыщенным. Одной из историй этого лета стали мои встречи с человеком, скорнее персонажем, фигурирующим в моей жизни уже несколько месяцев. Человек, первая встреча наедине с которым вывела меня из себя. Я не знаю точно что произошло за последнее время, но мы нашли общий язык.

I find it annoyingly entertaining to see how every missed moment with you, makes me feel irritated. No matter how confident I was in not needing you, when you didn't show up to a class, the 2 hours a week of your presence that I took as granted, the agitation kicked in. I, once again, am thinking of messaging you, I am no longer at peace with the situation and even the prospect of us not actually being all that compatible, doesn't stop me from spiraling into a void of dissatisfaction. But honestly, it is well past time to work it out... nurturing a conversation that was due in June, latest July, does not make it better, things will probably never solve themselves and an opportunity to have this conversation will probably never fall into my hands, unless I initiate it. For the peace of my mind.