Dear Friend take 2

Today I dreamt if you, it took 1 hour for you to show up in my dream. All you did was touch me and that was enough. Enough to set the mood for all of my waking moments. They say we dream of the people that miss us. Do you? Why would you? You barely know me. But then again, I barely know you. Unlike you, I have relatively little to lose. On the other hand it is all relative and I know that dreams will stay just what they are. There are too many complications that lead me to a flowing cloud of ether- my emotions. 

Dear Friend

Things have been weird and things have definitely been in my head. As always. I feel that change IS coming, however I may be running in front of the train. I'm not forcing anything, however, me- me is by definition a social step ahead. I am not and will not be mad at anyone. I have the understanding and idleness to not do so.

 I feel that my world is a step away from falling apart at times. Most of the time about 3 steps. Who does one trust and possibly rely on? In the end of the day, one's own desire to live and progress is what pushes you forward, but what if there is nothing to push you and none to support you? What if there is suddenly nothing?