Отсутствие новостей- хуже всего, бездействие, нехватка событий, впечатлений.
When all is quite at the western front the craziest shit goes down in my head. The craziest shit that turns it all into grey. all is idle. all can go screw itself, cause any emotion is better than no emotion- so it turns into anger. I guess. Until even that is used up by my adhd brain that no longer can packen what the fuck is going on where I am and what my life is. It's that point when I no longer know what was there before and it seems like there is no after- seems like that moment and state are eternal. Does this all go back to the supposed belief that humans respond better to pain and sorrow? No. When I'm happy- I'm happy and that is eternal.
And so it goes on and on and on in my mind- there hasn't been much around other than my mind lately, so for all it seems, it is everywhere and that is all there is.
And it's that much worse, when you know that it could and should be better.
When all is quite at the western front the craziest shit goes down in my head. The craziest shit that turns it all into grey. all is idle. all can go screw itself, cause any emotion is better than no emotion- so it turns into anger. I guess. Until even that is used up by my adhd brain that no longer can packen what the fuck is going on where I am and what my life is. It's that point when I no longer know what was there before and it seems like there is no after- seems like that moment and state are eternal. Does this all go back to the supposed belief that humans respond better to pain and sorrow? No. When I'm happy- I'm happy and that is eternal.
And so it goes on and on and on in my mind- there hasn't been much around other than my mind lately, so for all it seems, it is everywhere and that is all there is.
And it's that much worse, when you know that it could and should be better.
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