Conscious inertia

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-Кэп

I am a dreamer.
I love life, I love living life and being present here. I spend loads of time doing things that interest me. However, I keep on realising that I am thinking a lot about some one-individual's life, paying attention to it and imagining our next meeting, or conversation. Doing things, as if I'd like that individual to see them. When the worst comes to worst, I observe the details in the photos, published on social networks to put together the puzzle, that is the social event that I wasn't present at. To recreate that moment that I could have been a part of.

I feel that a lot of the above nonsense deprives my present of, me. I live days only 60% here, on average. Although most of my day is directed at self development, I feel like there's something I'm missing. Although, that's not true.
I don't really feel that, I am perfectly awesome with the way things are.