I don't like thinking about the past, I don't see the point in that- all that I learned, I've learned while being there at that moment or in a different moment that followed. There isn't any point in going back and evaluating things again- we don't have the means to evaluate the situation, to learn more from it, too many variables that were once present are now missing, a moment, once realised, is gone at it wont ever come back. That's the beauty of it.
Nevertheless, getting flashbacks of the past you and realising that now you is completely different is fun. I mean I was and am awesome but, generally speaking ain't it cool?
Initially was going to say that I feel waaay too mature, but a bit of Fortran90 programing took that feeling away from me, cause you know who so lost she can't even upload the exercise on the server? :D flashflash goes pscp.exe, flashflash, you can't have me- such a tease!
Still the point of this post was that, I feel like I'm almost home, after a period of mere existence I have finally started living (a while ago, but still). With my newly found love for Mathematical Analysis and Aleksey, I genuinely enjoy reading The Foundations of Analysis and proving theorems and using them to work stuff out, the best part is that there is a practical purpose to all that I learn.
My soontobefound love for MM1, hopefully will come around soon, completing my happy sphere-and-vacuum-occupied-space of an awesome field of study. With all that I have planned, I always have something to do- I'm always busy and I love it, I always have and seriously missed it this year or so. The amount of new interesting acquaintances that I make is growing exponentially and generally life is awesome.
I'm enjoying life, that's all, enjoying all I learn, I enjoy fulfilling my plans- it's a bit like having a conspiracy with the universe, or like playing some childish game with it, where you make bets and the universe plays along, even though both of you know what the outcome will be. There's still always that victorious feeling, that you are right. I'm just trying a few "paths with heart"...
Nevertheless, getting flashbacks of the past you and realising that now you is completely different is fun. I mean I was and am awesome but, generally speaking ain't it cool?
Initially was going to say that I feel waaay too mature, but a bit of Fortran90 programing took that feeling away from me, cause you know who so lost she can't even upload the exercise on the server? :D flashflash goes pscp.exe, flashflash, you can't have me- such a tease!
Still the point of this post was that, I feel like I'm almost home, after a period of mere existence I have finally started living (a while ago, but still). With my newly found love for Mathematical Analysis and Aleksey, I genuinely enjoy reading The Foundations of Analysis and proving theorems and using them to work stuff out, the best part is that there is a practical purpose to all that I learn.
My soontobefound love for MM1, hopefully will come around soon, completing my happy sphere-and-vacuum-occupied-space of an awesome field of study. With all that I have planned, I always have something to do- I'm always busy and I love it, I always have and seriously missed it this year or so. The amount of new interesting acquaintances that I make is growing exponentially and generally life is awesome.
I'm enjoying life, that's all, enjoying all I learn, I enjoy fulfilling my plans- it's a bit like having a conspiracy with the universe, or like playing some childish game with it, where you make bets and the universe plays along, even though both of you know what the outcome will be. There's still always that victorious feeling, that you are right. I'm just trying a few "paths with heart"...
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