Act of amnesia

Jajaja, funny cause that's the way you write hahaha in Spanish.

Things have come to a point where I started with the personal emotions and feelings. My perception of people and how it is soo very different from who they really are. Their perception of me. There's so many people, so many motives I don't care to understand.

My emotional unavailability leaves me idle to almost everything and it is extremely weird if every now and then I feel a strange numb physical "budumb" and realise that that uncomfortable feeling may be caused by me not being happy about something that is happening or something someone said. That doesn't matter much though, what annoys me is my inability to make some strong decisions, of course the ones that really matter are still ait, but so many other things are not very cool of me. Or others.
Well, all being said, I keep feeling that emotional "budum", the frequency has increased and I think I might be getting out from under the anaesthesia.

Although, not sure if it's better for the anaesthesia state to be permanent or temporary...