First day of uni and I haven't been to uni yet! I have however missed two lectures- ahhh, good reminder of the ass raping Austrian system, no taking your eyes off of that little goblin! Otherwise you miss out.

Why do Poli feel so scared of university, cause I'm scared of feeling like a fucking imbecile again. People believe in me, say I'll achieve great things cause I'm able, I'm awesome and I have great opportunities lying ahead of me. There two things that annoy me there: pressure of expectations, but most of all my fear of success. What the fuck is wrong with me now? I don't get afraid, especially not of success!
I feel like I lack the knowledge, for anything, MM1 or any aspect of my chosen profession or direction of study and I feel like I won't ever get to the appropriate level...

I need to stop this, get my shit together, fucking grow a pair of big ass dinosaur balls and decrease the value of all those maths problems also study.