Dear Bob,

My sanity is fading. All of my definitions of "happiness" are re-defined. The world is changing, times are changing. Although, of course there's nothing new to this statement. This years goes out to show that the problem has always been me. I effect those around me and attract them into my life and sometimes they get damaged in the process, not without experiencing something good for themselves, however. I am drained. I am so far beyond being lost- I have been lost many times over for many many years, finding stability and then drifting away from it, only to enter a maze of all-consuming adolescent emotion. I've made so many loops around that maze, I've gotten to the center and reached the last trap door near the exit- the one with the big scary monster, you know him...or her? So now I'm here feeling empty, feeling useless, feeling unloved and annoyed by myself and the spineless image of what is projected of me as a person. I am so tired of fighting of feeling extra down. It's time for a change. It's time to focus on myself. So Bob, if you don't hear from me soon, you know where I'll be. I need this time and I need this space. Happiness and euphoria will come again, I don't know when or ever, but for now, it's time to embrace the sadness-so it guide me out of here.

Sincerely,

Alice