Sometimes something fucked up turns out to be ok, or even good. Sometimes, most miserable emotional states are put under control, almost always, sooner or later, one way or another. Sometimes people you never thought you'd ever communicate with end up being the best company you've had in a very long time. Sometimes you meet people and they just smell of your childhood and make you feel safe, like nothing you say will ever be out of line and nothing can go wrong as long as you follow their advice and just because they said something will happen- it definitely will. Sometimes, you meet people and connect with them fast on an invisible intimate level, you know there will be no speculations, because it is off limits. You genuinely like that person and enjoy every part of their personality no matter how cold, harsh, quirky, or just different from your's it can be. Sometimes you know you're playing with fire, you know you're a step away from slipping and whatever direction you fall, there will be pain. Sometimes you realise that your mutual affection is pleasant but too much to do good, that depending on the presence of this ray of sunshine in your life is comforting, but destructive in the long run.

Sometimes, quite unexpectedly, you meet someone you never thought you'd like. Sometimes you do. Sometimes it seems so natural and real, you lose all control of the process and invest an infinite amount of will power to just be able to finish an assignment. Sometimes, every day spent together is the happiest you've been in years. Sometimes, things take a turn for the better and it's almost hard to accept it as reality. Sometimes you just do. Sometimes things dissolve into nothing. Sometimes you don't know why. Sometimes you're left hanging for days, weeks. Sometimes, you get random, decreasing signs of affection. Sometimes, your efforts to forget are overruled by content-less messages on your phone and the attempts you make to forgive are abandoned by the complete lack of regard for your emotional health and the logical paranoia of the biggest threat of all... "meeting each other in person outside of university hours". Sometimes all of the happiness gets washed out by emotional instability and uncontrollable, illogical emotional pain. Sometimes, all that's left is DUST GRAINS IN SPACE!!!! jk, I mean, nothing.